The evening before

Hello my friends. What a weird time. The evening before. I am in this incredible rush and rollecoaster of emotions, between panic and excitement of the like I’ve never experienced before. I have dreamt about this moment for so many years, had it in my mind as a construct and now that it’s finally here it’s so hard to grasp that this is all becoming reality. There were a lot of hardships and difficult moments and periods and the way towards this dream was quite a hard one, so it feels so incredibly rewarding and empowering to stand here now and actually put everything I dreamed about into motion.

But yeah – I am nervous haha. I mean… I am about to spent an very long time out in the wild, with nothing other than my bike as means of transportation. Thoughts like “am I really ready for this”, “am I made for this” and “will I find the energy to do all the camping stuff everyday” are popping up. But I think that’s very normal – after all it is a big adventure and a bit of respect is maybe even healthy. Because after all I keep coming back to the realization that this is my life dream – that even if there is a rough day or a day where I maybe didn’t go through the hassle of washing my clothes in the wash bag, I’ll be living my idea of absolute freedom. My dream. And it wouldn’t be as bright and shiny, if there wasn’t the odd shadow around as well. So I am just super excited and interested to see how things will turn out, what incredible experiences I’ll make and so on.

Time to eat some dinner with family, go for a nice walk and then probably binge watch Netflix the whole night because I’m too nervous to sleep. But hey – before I know it, I’ll already be on the roads of Finland cycling away. I’ll probably have time to write about my train ride and first experiences on the ferry tomorrow, so keep an eye out for that. For now I’ll leave you with a picture of my bicycle fully packed. Time to start living – can’t wait to have you all along with me.